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Name: Amanda
Location: Parkersburg, West Virginia, United States
Birthday: 12/18/1986
Gender: Female


Interests: Jesus; Camp Cowen, taking over the world, acting, writing. hiking, photography, reading and movies. WVWC class of 09... V8 FUSION TAKES OVER THE WORLD (walmart battle of '06) YOGA biology
Expertise: doing impressions of people. theology... eating really fast....too fast. English, Theatre, Science; not boys.
Occupation: Artist
Industry: Art


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Member Since: 7/13/2004

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Sunday, December 23, 2007

well i held it together for a good 2 days.
grandpa died
josh's friend died at a young age. not christian.
i hate death and how upset it makes me when someone young dies or someone i love.
work sucked. i kept trying to leave, but i had to stay because we were so busy. all these ppl with their stupid drinks. drinks. stupid. and they're demands. here i am serving them and just wanting to get away so i can go to my grandfather's memorial and be with my family. but i cant get away because of their stupid smiling faces. acting like i'm happy to serve them.
it's just dumb.
i need money. i hate work.
paradox of life.
i feel sick. i just want to cry but i have to reason to. everything on my body hurts.
i'm so filled with hatred right now. and i'm so scared to be this way in front of my family.
i dont like to be this way. i like to be cheery and happy. but i'm not. i'm miserable. it's not like MY sister died, but at the same time, i just feel awful.
i'm waiting for dad to come pick me up and take me to the memorial. i'm not sure if i can handle it. just the thought of seeing my grandpa there. dead. ...it makes me want to explode.
i cant be there for people right now. i need to be there for myself in my own way. mostly i want to run away when stuff like this happens.
i just want to run it out of me.
i just want...
i want too much. i'm selfish. oh Lord.
oh Lord. Oh Lord.
Oh Lord.


Wednesday, December 27, 2006

thoughts. plans. ideas. good intentions.

are nothing without actions.





act up.


Thursday, December 21, 2006

i pretty much love patrick, joseph, beth, colleen and bre. i do i do i do-oo. they're pahretty cool. i throughly enjoyed the visit of the cburgers.
so little miss sunshine is frickin hilarious.
i'm going out to eat today with austin, should be fun to catch up.
people have been asking a lot so: i am seeing someone his name is frank. he's 19 and a christian. he doesnt drink or smoke. (so he meets my main prerequisites haha) and he's pretty cool. he's in the army but he's currently back to go to school. so that is nifty. he did have some things happen in the past, made some mistakes, but he's really cool now. so that's good. we'll see how this good. i'm just playing by ear. nothing serious.
i've been working nonstop since i got home. catching up on zeta stuff and everything that i had put off. cowen stuff, church stuff, acting stuff. oi avay it's been crazy. and i've been working at least 40 hours a week at the coffee shop. so hopefully that will come to some good.
i had to charge all my presents since i wasn't going to get paid until the 20th so that sucked. but it's okay i guess. OH YEA! i need to go to the bank today....
well, i'm going to shower and get ready to go out to eat and stuff. i have to go pick up frank from his house bc he let me drive his car home yesterday. (he was tired so i drove him home so he wouldn't have to drive and then i drove his car to my house. it was flippin sweet!!! he has a wicked awesome car that handles like a dream and wow. it was amazing. i'm stealing it.)


Monday, December 11, 2006

no one reads this any more. that partly makes me sad.
i dunno why.
i let slip to my mother something that i should not have let slip. dang o dang.
you see, i dont even know who i am any more.
i dont know if i ever did.
and now people keep asking me who i am and what i'm going to be.
in the words of Jack Black: step off!!

i'm doing my own thing. and i'm giong to enjoy it. and it will be good.


Thursday, December 07, 2006

stolen from Cody this is a treat:

1. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: (first pet & current street name)

Lady Eton (sweeett...that sounds bad...)

2. YOUR "FLY Guy/Girl" NAME: (first initial of first name, first three letters of your middle name)

A Mar (wtf? lame. that aint fly)

3. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal)

Green Panther (hahaha)

4. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born)

Marie Parkersburg (.....)

5. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name, first 2 letters of mom's maiden)

Seeamhi (oooo...totally changing my name to that!)

6. SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd favorite color, favorite drink put "The" in front of your answer)

The Red Milk (uhm....)

7. NASCAR NAME: (the first names of your grandfathers)

Harvey Brady (aww sweet!)

8. FUTURISTIC NAME: ( the name of your favorite perfume/cologne and the name of your favorite kind of shoes)

Clinique Tennis (sounds more like my olympic name)

9.WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother & father's middle name )

Ann Winfield



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You scored as Peter Pan. Your alter ego is Peter Pan. You are a child at heart. Anything you believe is possible, and you never want to grow up.

Peter Pan

81%

Donald Duck

75%

Cinderella

75%

The Beast

69%

Sleeping Beauty

69%

Goofy

63%

Ariel

63%

Snow White

38%

Cruella De Ville

25%

Pinocchio

19%

Which Disney Character is your Alter Ego?
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